Meditation Monday – When Grief and Gratitude Embrace

by Christine Sine

This last week I was asked to do an endorsement for a book on grief and gratitude. It is the most impacting book I have read for a long time and I can hardly wait for it to be published. Part of what it made me realize is that we cannot talk about gratitude without also talking about grief. We cannot develop effective rituals for expressing gratitude without creating equally powerful rituals for processing grief.

I can’t introduce you to the book yet, but I can introduce you to an article which the author gleaned from. It has not only resulted in me asking important questions of myself  but also led to important discussions between my husband and I about the things in our past that we have not properly grieved and became an important part of our last Facebook Live discussion. It is not just about grieving for what we have lost in the pandemic either. Most of us hold huge wells of unexpressed grief inside us because we live in a culture where grief is unwelcome, something we need to get over quickly. We are ashamed to grieve.  As a consequence we are prone to addiction, depression, violence, suicide, possibly cancer, heart disease and I would add PTSD.

The work of the mature person is to carry grief in one hand and gratitude in the other and to be stretched large by them. How much sorrow can I hold? That’s how much gratitude I can give. If I carry only grief, I’ll bend towards cynicism and despair. If I have only gratitude, I’ll become saccharine and won’t develop much compassion for other people’s suffering. Grief keeps the heart fluid and soft, which helps make compassion possible. (The Geography of Sorrow – Francis Weller on Navigating Our Losses – by Tim McKee)

So a few important gems I picked up from the article –

First – rituals of grieving should be communal. This doesn’t mean we don’t go off and weep in solitude, but after we do we should be welcomed back into a group where we can pour out and empty our sorrows together in an environment of comfort and mutual support.  I love the rituals of using a cup that Lilly Lewin regularly introduces us to. She uses these in the Thinspace Nashville services she conducts each week as well as for her personal practices. These are the types of practices we all need to help us maintain the grif/gratitude balance.

In healthy cultures one person’s wound is an opportunity for another to bring medicine. But if you are silent about your suffering, then your friends stay spiritually unemployed.

In Navajo culture, for example, illness and loss are seen as communal concerns, not as the responsibility of the individual. Healing is a matter of restoring hozho – beauty/harmony in the community. The Geography of Sorrow – Francis Weller on Navigating Our Losses – by Tim McKee

Second – we should approach grief with reverence, engaging it, sitting with it, mulling it over and recognizing it is worthy of our time .  I think this is particularly important at the moment. We are all coming out of the pandemic with a load of grief weighing us down. We are encouraged to feel we should get over it quickly, get back to normal and enjoy life again. Grief is seen as something to be ashamed of, not something to embrace. It is easy to dismiss the need for rituals of grief especially as the consumer culture hypes up for the Christmas season. After all isn’t Christmas meant to be “the happiest season of all?”

Here are a few of my suggestions on rituals that can help us process our grief and move towards gratitude in the coming months:

1. Sit around the table with your family or a few close friends and talk about those things from the past that still need to be grieved about. Just talking about these together can bring a measure of healing. Discuss other ways that you could support each other as you process your grief.
2. Plan a celebration for All Saints’ Day or Day of the Dead  coming up at the beginning of November. Celebrating, grieving and giving thanks for those who have gone before are all interwoven in these important days on the church calendar. I love the ribbons of remembrance that our church creates every year. We all have an opportunity to write the names of our loved ones on ribbons that later are woven around the altar rail or hung around the church.
3. Plan a Blue Christmas celebration. Here on Godspace we provide a growing set of resources to help with this celebration. Last year we participated in a powerful and extremely meaningful online Blue Christmas service where we interwove liturgy, creativity, scripture and music together.
4. Plan regular retreat days over the next few months to help you slow down, grieve and find that much needed balance between grief and gratitude. Part of the wonder of the Advent and Christmas story which we will talk about in the upcoming retreat Walking In Wonder Through Advent is the recounting of both joy and tragedy. If you follow the liturgical calendar you know that December 28th is Holy Innocents Day when we commemorate the execution of the innocent, male children in Bethlehem as told in Matthew 2:16. It is an uncomfortable day that I always want to skip over, but this year I know it is worthy of remembering. So many innocents have died in the last year, not just from COVID but from hunger, disease, violence and natural disasters.  This story gives us the foundations for grieving our own losses. It is just as easy for us to skip over the tragedy because of our desire to focus on the joy. This year we need to make space for both.
5. Listen to Leonard Cohen’s incredible song Hallelujah which I listen to regularly to help me process some of my grief burden.

Journal about your grief feelings.

Read Psalm 130 or similar psalm that begins with grief and ends in praise.  Sit in the presence of your feelings of grief and allow God to bring healing. As I did that this week this simple poem grew in my mind:
When tears are closer than praise,
God’s love still surrounds me,
Jesus still comforts me,
The Spirit still dwells within.
When tears are closer than praise,
I sit and welcome them into my soul.
My trust is in you O Eternal One,
I put my hope in your transforming love,
And wait for you to wash away my tears.

Christine Sine October 2021.

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To help you find the balance between grif and gratidue this Advent season consider joining us for our upcoming virtual retreat.

Now live and ready for registration! Join Christine and Lilly for a virtual retreat unlocking the wonder of the Advent season on November 20th, 2021 from 9:30 am-12:30 pm PDT.