By Jeannie Kendall —
When, I wonder, did the church lose its recognition that we are all imperfect and broken? Again and again we hear the comment from people that they don’t feel good enough for church, or something similar. I’ve even heard people in churches express the thought that they are not like others because their lives are far from the perfect one they imagine others in the church are living.
I believe that we are all broken, just in different ways. Beautiful children of the Creator, we carry a fracture, a fault line which repeatedly sets us at odds with ourselves, others and God. This inherent capacity to find ourselves alienated from all that brings wholeness, within us as an underlying characteristic, at times erupts from our deeper self to ambush us with behaviour which is not what God intends nor what we expect of ourselves. In our desire for self-justification we grade such outbreaks….seeing our own infringements of God’s best for us as minor compared to those of others. It may feel trivial, or catastrophic, but, if we allow honest reflection, our brokenness stares at us in our inner mirror, an unwelcome guest in our assessment of ourselves.
I’ve often wondered about the description (in both the Old and New Testament’s) of David as a man after God’s heart. It’s hard to find a more devastating outbreak of our intrinsic self-destructiveness than David’s – adultery, lies, deception, murder and betrayal. In Psalm 51 his brokenness emanates from every agonised word of his abject outpouring of guilt. His life is shattered, and surely he must have wondered if God could even hold the pieces.
Yet that very outpouring, I suspect, might be exactly why (at least partially) David is so described. His life in jagged shards, every memory piercing him in its inescapable repetition, still his instinct is to return to God, to seek to see the relationship re-established. His every intuition is that however badly he has let himself down, however estranged he may feel, what he needs to do is go home to God. Perhaps, like the younger son of Jesus’ simple yet profound story of the prodigal son, he was not initially sure of his welcome. His instinct though was right.
Times of particular pain, whether caused by our own misdeeds and awareness of our imperfection or some other form of suffering, tell us a lot about the reality of our desire for God and, perhaps, our understanding of Him. Both David and the younger son sensed, however imperfectly, that to return would bring welcome and solace. Others, like the elder son, missing the outrageous grace of the Father, keep a tragic distance.
God’s heart was towards David, and the younger son, and is always towards us, however aware of our imperfections we might be.
by Christine Sine
It is blackberry picking season here in the Pacific NW and last week Mustard Seed House community members Dan and Lisa De Rosa went blackberry picking around Greenlake. They had planned well and were prepared for the harvest with lots of yoghurt containers to fill and lots more to give away to others who had come unexpectedly on the harvest without any planning.
Last week I talked about our need to plan. I talked about planting but as I chatted to Dan and Lisa this week I realized that the harvest needs just as much if not more planning so that we can not only harvest effectively for ourselves but so that we can be generous in what we give away too.

garden bounty a harvest feast from God
Plan for the Harvest
The first step in planning effectively for any harvest is to look at what fruit is ripening and when it will be ready. Then we need to figure out what we are going to do with it.
Similarly in our spiritual lives. Paul tells us that the fruit of the spirit are unconditional love, joy, peace, patience, kindheartedness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. (Galations 5:22-23) Where have these attributes grown in you over the summer? How can you harvest them now.
What else has grown over the summer that is now ready for harvest? Hopefully it has been a season of refreshment and renewal with lots of relaxation and fun. Maybe there have been times of retreat and pilgrimage. Or perhaps you have been on mission trips that have opened your eyes to new perspectives on our world and its people. The fruit is ready – how do we harvest it and what are we going to do with it?
Know What to Do With It.
What do we do once we have harvested the crops? There are three things we can do – we can eat it immediately, we can store and preserve it for future use or we can give it away. All are important.
Harvest festivals are a great way to both enjoy and to share the abundance of the harvest.Harvest time is best when we share – both in the harvesting and in the consuming. Perhaps we need something similar in our spiritual lives – festivals of laughter and fun, of delight and thanksgiving in which we share the joys of summer and what we have learned about God.
As I ponder this I am reminded too that the elements of the eucharist are made from the earth’s bountiful harvest. Bread and wine, picked as individual grapes and kernels of wheat but crushed and united with other grapes and kernels to give us the elements we share. Individuals become community in the bread and the wine. Where else should I allow my individual harvest to be crushed and combined with that of others to provide nourishment? Generosity and sharing are written into the harvest.
Harvest The Imperfect Too.
Part of what I have learned from gardening is that even the imperfect fruit is worth eating. The misshapen and blemished fruit might look unsightly but it is still nourishing. Bruised fruit is more fragile but if we eat it quickly is still delicious. Even the worms that infest our apples can be avoided if we work quickly to dry, preserve and make pies.
What is the spiritual fruit of my summer that needs to be harvested and eaten quickly so that it doesn’t spoil I wonder? Maybe it is the energy that summer has stored – I know it will not last. My body will soon want to slow down for winter so I need to make the most of it now. I need to put my energy to good use, feeding both myself and others with God’s bounty. Or perhaps it is my summer reflections on what shaped my past and what will shape my future. I realize my imperfections when I move on from these too rapidly without giving them the attention they deserve. Or it could be my relationship to friends I saw over the summer – resolutions to stay in touch are already fading. Maybe the long term fruit are the memories and the delights of these encounters.
What Is Your Response.
What do you think are the fruit of your summer that need to be harvested now? What are the blemished and imperfect fruit that need to be eaten quickly? What are the fruit that should be preserved and stored for future use?
Take a few moments to prayerfully consider these questions. Write down what you feel God is saying to you.
By Ana Lisa De Jong —
THE LAND
We fight over the land.
We claim it through greed,
or the patterns of decades,
and the entitlement
of our father’s,
whose conquering spirits
were not restrained by right,
so much as
influenced by privilege.
So still we try to claim,
what maybe was never ours,
but which we think in the gaining,
the ownership of is justified.
We fight over a piece of soil,
or a resource that registers as gold
in hands that would misuse
if they could.
Or we fight over waters
that have ever sprung and flowed
since our world first hung in this space
we call home.
And place becomes
a thing that we have borrowed,
that we think in the borrowing
we can now call our own.
Yes, we fight over the land.
Over who was here before us
and who might have stolen
what was not theirs to take.
And often our grief is justified,
as our ancestor’s tears
mingle in the rivers
of a land bleeding yet.
Yet I wonder if the earth,
if it had a voice that we could hear,
might remind us of its natural state
before any of us measured our claim.
I wonder if we all might possess a little piece
if we saw it as something borrowed
and for a time shared,
before being given back.
I know when I stand on a promontory
by the ocean,
on a cliff-face that has been carved out
for an eternity before me,
I feel more than the linkage with my ancestors,
calling from their many directions.
I feel the beating heart of an earth
that in its generosity has claimed me.
HOME
Whoever said
home is a place
that we have grown up in,
and have traced its familiar lines
with hands
that know its contours;
whoever said
home is all we’ve ever lived,
and known,
have not understood
how home can exist
separate to experience.
How
there are places
in our journeying where,
on cresting a hill,
a certain scent in the wind
evokes a memory
a pull
that can feel like
both a call
to new terrains,
and a remembrance
of older landscapes.
Yes, whoever said
home is a place that we know,
have not known how
we can trace the edges
of something
and know its pattern.
And can feel
a sense of belonging
in a foreign field,
as though something in us
were native born
to its land.
Perhaps in one sense
we all belong to each other.
And the earth is the carpet
upon which
we flower briefly
until we dissolve into its ground.
And the features
of our experience,
so new to our eyes,
and yet familiar,
we have perhaps seen
in our dreams before this.

Zoe White
“Of all the things I wondered about on this land, I wondered the hardest about the seduction of certain geographies that feel like home — not by story or blood but merely by their forms and colors. How our perceptions are our only internal map of the world, how there are places that claim you and places that warn you away. How you can fall in love with the light.” – Ellen Meloy, The Anthropology of Turquoise
NOT BEAUTIFUL
Tell me I’m not beautiful
when I’m rich in colour.
A tapestry made of ochre earth,
slow moving blue/green river,
and the sun’s golden glow
descending behind mountains.
For I am made up of everything
that I have seen, and more.
The record of a thousand years,
each sight and sound
of innumerable ancestors
burning behind my eyes.
Tell me I’m not of value
when I’m rich in dignity.
With a value that cannot be bestowed,
for it being already owned,
an inherent worth given
by divine intent.
Tell me I’m not beautiful
when beauty runs through my veins,
and the purity of my origins
keeps me anchored to the earth,
but standing on the shoulders
of humble giants.
Tell me I’m not as good as you
when I’m rich in colour.
A tapestry of every hue,
on a great circling planet
which claims every piece
as essential as the other.
By Sean Gladding —
From time to time I write about what my garden is teaching me about life. Paying attention to the plants, insects, birds and soil with which I share space helps cultivate within me the practice of listening to my own life. The informal education my garden provides continues to shape me as a person: humus making me more human. Sometimes formal education in gardening does the same.
Three years ago, I participated in a Master Community Gardener course offered by Seedleaf, a wonderful organization in our neighborhood committed to “nourishing communities by growing, cooking, sharing and recycling food.” The most interesting session for me was the one on recycling food, better known, perhaps, as composting. We’ve been trying to turn kitchen scraps, grass clippings and leaves into compost for more than a decade, with varying degrees of success. I had always heard if you could just get the pile hot enough, it would break down everything you put in it into ‘black gold,’ the nourishing soil amendment that is compost. But there were always those woody stems – thick cellulose walls – from the bigger plants that never seemed to break down. So, I assumed my pile wasn’t producing enough heat, pulled out those woody stems and put them in the yard waste bin.
But then in the session on composting I learned why that was the case, and how to change the way we went about composting in order to break down those thick walls. Along the way, I began to think about other walls that need to be broken down, (tasks in which we seem to be making little progress) and what we might learn from the humble compost pile.
There is no question that at this moment in US history, the walls with which we live – walls which divide us from each other – appear to be growing stronger. Walls that divide us based on the amount of melanin in our skin. Or the language we speak. Or our religion. Or the political party we identify with. Or the amount of education we have. Or our gender and/or sexual identity. Literal walls that create ‘gated communities,’ whether those are high-end housing developments or prisons. Walls that separate families, communities and sovereign tribal nations across national borders.
Over the past few years we have witnessed people take to the streets to protest these walls, in their hundreds and in their hundreds of thousands. I’ve walked in some of those myself. It feels good to be reminded that not everyone is in favor of such walls. These protests generate a lot of heat, both in real life and online, especially those that have drawn large crowds across the country. But when the cardboard signs have been placed in recycle bins, the hats hung on hooks by the door, and words to catchy chants forgotten, the cold, hard reality is that all that heat rarely makes a dent in the walls.
Enter compost. Yes, compost piles generate heat. But that’s not enough. In the Seedleaf course, I learned that there are two phases to composting: bacterial and fungal. The first ‘wave’ of bacteria are cellulose eaters, and they are mesophilic – they don’t like it too hot, nor too cold. They begin to break things down for what comes next – the heat. Because the second ‘wave’ of millions of individual bacteria are thermophilic – they love the heat – and they get the pile up to about 160 degrees, which kills the weed seeds and pathogens I don’t want in my garden beds. But then they die off, and unless the second phase happens, for all that heat, I’ll be left with half-finished compost, with all those thick woody stems – tough, cellulose walls – remaining. The second phase sees the rise of mesophilic fungal communities, who are lignin eaters (the woody stems). And their long, slow, steady work will eventually break down the toughest of those walls and leave me with the ‘black gold’ I’m looking for.
Marches and protests and the heat they generate are important. But they’re not enough. And they’re sometimes co-opted by people with personal and political agendas who are drawn by the heat of the moment, but who often overlook those who’ve been doing this work for a long time. Because just as my compost pile needs fungal communities to break down walls, we need people committed to the long, slow, unseen and non-heat generating work of building communities that will – in time – break down the walls we live with. People who may themselves march in the streets, but who then return to their neighborhood, roll up their sleeves and get back to their ongoing and unheralded work of dismantling the walls that have been built to divide people.
In my neighborhood, the people cultivating ‘fungal communities’ are often women of color. People like my friend Tanya, who opens her family’s home on Saturday mornings for a neighborhood breakfast. While she fixes waffles and brews the coffee, you might find a city council member sitting at the dining table talking about affordable housing with someone whose landlord takes their disability check and gives them $20 a week, while refusing to fix the stove/broken window/plumbing/heating in their draughty apartment of last resort. People like April, who, together with her sister Sarah, has quietly been doing this work for years. You’ll find April at a Fresh Stop market, organizing more equitable access to fresh produce with an innovative CSA. People like Anita, who lost a son to gun violence in the park at the end of our street, and who organizes ongoing ‘Peace Walks,’ and advocates for more creative ways to address conflict in our community. People like Christine, a master gardener herself, who helps bring all kinds of people together to grow food and flowers and friendship.
If we really want to do away with the walls that divide us from each other, while we may be drawn to the heat of whatever the next protest is, dismantling those walls will involve showing up within the fungal communities that already exist, and joining the long, slow, often unnoticed – and unfunded – work that has been going on for a long time. Especially when that gives us the opportunity to be led by people who have as much to teach us about the work as my garden has to teach me about life.
Sean Gladding is a storyteller, pastor, community gardener, backyard chicken keeper and YMCA soccer coach. I’m married to Rebecca, am father to Maggie and Seth, and we live, love, work and play in the MLK neighborhood in Lexington, Kentucky, where we are part of the Fig Tree Collective. You can read more about our life in the East End here.
My first book, The Story of God, the Story of Usis an attempt to tell the ‘Big Story’ that unfolds in the pages of the bible. Churches, small groups, colleges and seminaries use it as an introduction to the bible – both for folk who’ve never read the bible, and those who’ve been reading it for years. It was one of Relevant magazine’s Top Ten books of 2010, and is available as an unabridged audiobook, read by my wife Rebecca and myself. My second book, TEN: Words of Life for an Addicted, Compulsive, Cynical, Divided and Worn-out Culture, was also published with IVP. I also contributed to Banned Questions About Christians.
By Lynne M. Baab —
In my first post in this series, I described a community dinner and a prayer support group as examples of patterns of Christian caring that are now being recognized as pastoral care. Those two examples illustrate several of the trends in pastoral care that I identify in my new book, Nurturing Hope: Christian Pastoral Care in the Twenty-First Century.
Here are the seven trends I think need to be in the front of our minds today in the area of Christian care today:
- Pastoral care has many models. The model of pastoral care from 50 years ago, a minister sitting in an office having a one-on-one counseling session with a parishioner, still remains. In addition, people who lead the Wednesday Night Dinner I described in my last post – cooks, servers, greeters, clean-up people, and folks who are trying to build relationships across socioeconomic boundaries – are providing care, as are people in small groups, task groups, and music groups in congregations. A conversation in the parking lot after a committee meeting, where two people take the time to ask how each other is doing, is also a form of pastoral care.
- Teams and a variety of individuals provide pastoral care. Many congregations these days have pastoral care teams. Roman Catholics led the way here because the shortage of priests means that others in the parish must provide pastoral care for parishioners who are in need. In my own Presbyterian congregation, the board of deacons functions as a pastoral care team, taking meals to people who have just gotten out of the hospital and bringing communion to shut-ins.
- Christian Pastoral Care Is Grounded in the Triune God. The term “pastoral care” is used in numerous secular settings these days, and Christians can only rejoice when people provide any form of care. However, Christians must have a clear understanding of what makes Christian pastoral care uniquely Christian. I wrote last week about the shepherd passages in the Bible. Christian pastoral carers must understand and experience God as our Shepherd, the one who guides and empowers human care-givers.
- Christian Pastoral Care Is Missional. About 25 years ago, some Christians began to use the word “missional,” to refer to the understanding that we are sent into the world as Jesus was sent (John 17:18). Christian pastoral care is always a part of the mission of God, revealed in Jesus Christ and empowered by the Holy Spirit, to bring God’s love to the world. Christian pastoral care today, then, meets needs within congregations but also in the wider community.
- Pastoral Care Occurs across Ethnicities and Religions. Throughout the world, cities, towns, and neighborhoods are becoming more ethnically diverse. Many congregations have experienced increasing diversity. As congregations reach beyond their doors to their community, they often encounter ethnic and religious diversity. Caring today involves engaging with and meeting needs experienced by people who are different than we are.
- Pastoral Care Empowers. In many caring professions like social work, professionals are becoming more aware of the dangers of dependency. The goal of professional care is to empower people to find their own strength. Christian pastoral carers increasingly have the same concerns. One small, unexpected strategy that encourages empowerment is the growing awareness that all Christians are sometimes carers and sometimes care recipients. No one lives in one role forever, and that is quite freeing.
- Pastoral Carers Consider the Web of Relationships. Individuals don’t exist in isolation. All of us are embedded in families and communities. In the past, pastoral care was often viewed as helping an individual. In the twenty-first century, we have a growing understanding of the significance of the clusters of people connected to those to whom we are providing care. Increasingly, pastoral care seeks to meet the needs of families and other groups of people.
These seven trends are shaping pastoral care in our time. I invite you to ponder the way you see the trends impacting Christian ministry in your setting. In my next two posts I’ll discuss skills for pastoral care. To be continued . . .
By Rodney Marsh —
Life itself is imperfect. Always. Imperfect – my life, your life, our life together. Always. However imperfection is a sign of coming perfection. No imperfection – no glorious hope – at least in this life.
Thirty years ago my identical twin brother died. Without him, I will always be an imperfect whole. But that’s ok. I was an even more imperfect whole when he was alive.
A large part of my healing has been acceptance of my own imperfection through Christian meditation. I wrote this poem about my journey. It’s called
Tohu wa-bohu
Nietzsche stared into the Abyss
The Abyss stared back
He went mad.
Kierkegaard looked into the Abyss too
The Abyss said, “Jump”.
He jumped.
I saw the Abyss once.
I looked away.
Whilst looking away, I tried to see the darkness
(I used the light of my mind)
I could not see the darkness.
I listened to the silence.
I could hear nothing.
(except the sound of silence)
The silence then whispered: “turn”
I turned.
I cannot see or hear the Abyss,
but my heart senses an echo
Pregnant with promise.
‘Tohu wa-bohu‘ (formless nothingness) are the wonderfully onomatopoeic words of the Hebrew Bible describing the time before God spoke ‘being’ into existence.
by Christine Sine
This morning I turned on the kitchen lights when I got up in the morning. It’s the first time since summer began. We still expect warm days and abundant harvests for the next month or so, but this is my first warning that the seasons are about to change. It reminds me of when I worked in Jamaica. One of the common road signs read You Have Been Warned. It didn’t tell you whether there was a sharp curve or a pothole ahead, you just knew that it was time to be alert and keep your eyes open for change.
Change is the most constant aspect of our world. Seasons change, lives change, the world changes and our faith changes. In our lazy enjoyment of summer beauty and relaxation, it is easy to bury our heads in the sand and forget. Yet deep down we know change is coming and we all need to think about how to get ourselves ready and August is a good time to prepare.
As I thought about this over the last few days I realized that August has much to teach us about autumn and winter. You have been warned – It is time to plan! The more I thought about this the more I wanted to share so have decided to write 3 posts on August planning:
- Planning to plant.
- Planning for storage.
- Planning for harvest.
Be Alert To the Signs
What are the signs around you that suggest change is on its way and you need to prepare? To be honest I don’t always prepare well (yep that is one of my imperfections!) I am a hot weather person and hate to think that summer may be on its way out. It’s easy to ignore the changes and procrastinate on my preparations for the changing seasons. I don’t want to be a killjoy either. I want to enjoy the rest of the summer to its full. But I do need to be alert to the signs that autumn and winter are on their way and change is coming. Being alert means I can plan well to both embrace and accept change without fear or regret.
Plan Well
Preparing for autumn and winter in the garden is all about planning – with realistic expectations for the seasons that don’t need hothouses and grow lights to be productive.
Plant Responsibly.
What seeds should we plant now in preparation for the season ahead? August may be the hottest month in Seattle, and prime time for vacations but it is also the time to plant for fall and winter harvests. In fact I have been doing that over the weekend. However what I plant is different from my spring garden. I don’t plant tomatoes and squash that need heat to mature.
First I plant spinach, Asian greens, broccoli and root crops that I know will enjoy the cooler weather and mature quickly before the frost. I also plant overwintering crops that can get a good start now then sit dormant through the coldest months before maturing early in spring next year. Next I plan to plant autumn shrubs – perennials like blueberries and spring bulbs like daffodils and garlic. They may not show any growth until next year, but if I plant them in the autumn they send down deep roots that anchor them firmly in the year ahead. Last of all I plant cover crops that hold the soil together over the winter and then are tilled in in early spring to give a boost of nitrogen for next year’s crops.
Plant for Winter Slow Down.
I realize that I need to show the same responsibility in planting for growth and harvest in my body, soul and spirit. What new practices can I plant now that will enrich the upcoming seasons? How do I plan for autumn and winter soul harvests in the Northern hemisphere – fast growing, cool loving greens and root crops whose sweetness is enhanced by the first winter frost? Or in the Southern Hemisphere for the longer harvest season of spring and summer?
Once again it’s all about planning! And that planning needs to be both responsible and realistic just like my garden planning. If you are heading into Fall and winter as we are, it is good to remember that just as garden growth slows as the weather cools, so does the pace of our bodies and spirits. Our bodies create more rest. Maybe the lead up to Christmas is not meant to be the hectic and exhausting season we have made it into.
Plant for Root Growing.
What are the spiritual equivalents of perennials that need the winter to send down deep roots I wonder? For me it is scripture study and memorization. As I get ready for the winter this is a great time to get back into the disciplines of study. This year Jane Mossendew’s beautiful trilogy Gardening with God three books that walk us through the liturgical seasons of the year with plants to guide us each week. I am currently into The Crown of the Year. It’s really more about summer, but I am finding that her historical and liturgical insights are refreshing and give focus to any season.
What Spiritual Seeds Are We Sowing?
What seeds do we need to plant now that can provide food in the seasons ahead? Perhaps plan a retreat and away days – it’s time to get them on your calendar now before life gets too busy. Or create some spiritual tools and mindfulness exercises that will remind you to slow down and invite you to reflect and meditate. I have just purchased some canvas prints of a few of my prayer cards with this in mind. They will feature prominently in my sacred space over the next few months as a reminder of what the pace of my spiritual life is meant to be like. I take some deep breaths in and out, recite a prayer and spend a short time in silence each morning. It renews me in ways that nothing else does.
I am also thinking about my own desires for Advent and Christmas – how do I plan now so that these seasons are not hectic and overwhelming? What are the “cover crops” I need in my life that will protect the vulnerable soil in my soul in my soul and keep it safe over the winter? What elements will I add to my sacred space? What do I want my Advent and Christmas meditation gardens to look like?
What Is Your Response?

Prayers on the altar
One of my life scriptures is Psalm 31:14-15 But I pour my trust into You, Eternal One. I’m glad to say, “You are my God!” I give the moments of my life over to You, Eternal One. Particularly in times of change it is a great reminder that I do not control the future, God does.
Change is coming whether we like it or not. Watch the video below. Reflect on the changes you are facing in your life in the next few months.
What plans can you make now to weather the winter (or summer) well? What can you plant now that will nourish you over the Advent and Christmas seasons?
Let’s get prepared and remember our times are indeed in God’s hands. And keep your eyes open for next week’s post on planning for storage.
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