by Beth Stedman
How do we lean into the Light of Christ?
When I first saw this question in an email from Christine I honestly dismissed it a little. It felt like a good question and theme to sit with for Advent, but it didn’t resonate with me very much. And then…well, then God started calling me into some really deep soul work. Suddenly this question took on a life of it’s own.
I feel like God’s been going into rooms of my heart, sometimes rooms I didn’t even know where there, hidden away in the dark, and turning on the lights.
“You need to look at this. You need to pay attention to this.” He says, as he points to the clutter, the dirt, the broken windows, and cracked foundations. “It’s time to turn the light on, it’s time to see things for what they are, time to see yourself in truth.”
This has not been easy work. It’s been hard, painful, tear-filled work. It’s been the work of confession.
And I think it has been the work of preparation that I need, the work of preparing for Christmas, the work of Advent.
It is easy for me to forget that Advent was originally (and still is) a fasting season. Advent is to Christmas as Lent is to Easter. Yet that isn’t how I think of Advent, or how I practice Advent typically. Perhaps I’ve been missing something.
When John the Baptist came to prepare the way for Jesus, he didn’t do it with lovely decorations and a calendar full of parties and social engagements. He went out into the wilderness and called out, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near.” Repent.
I’ve often heard repentance described as turning and going the opposite direction, perhaps we could also describe repentance as turning on the lights. What I’m realizing is that when I bring my darkness, my brokenness, my sin out into the light, when I confess it and speak it aloud to others, it looses just a little of it’s power and it becomes easier for God to step in and lead me in a new direction.
I have heard people say before “we can’t heal what we don’t acknowledge” and I’m beginning to the think that there is more truth to this than I had ever realized before. What I continue to do is pretend I am alright. Pretend I don’t need a savior, or don’t continually need a savior. I make the cross of Christ’s grace cheap, claiming to walk in his mercy, but continuing on in my sin. My sin exposes the places where I don’t really believe the things I say I believe. So, I hid those things away, from myself, from others, and often from God. Although, “no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account” (Hebrews 4:13).
I’m beginning to think I cannot fully receive mercy and grace for what I do not expose. Perhaps this is exactly the work of sanctification. Exposing, one thing after another, before God, before myself, before others. Perhaps the work of sanctification requires that I see myself exactly as I am, see all of the cracks in my foundations, all of the broken places, the clutter and garbage to which I keep clinging. In seeing these things, in acknowledging, in leaning towards the light and letting it shine in all corners of myself, I am entering into the heart of Advent waiting, which is need.
It is our deep need for a savior, a messiah, that prompts us to call out the holy summons of Advent, “Come. Come, Lord Jesus.” It is our deep need for mercy and grace, for someone to do for us what we cannot do for ourselves, that produces in us the holy longing of Advent.
Perhaps Advent is really a season of repentance. And perhaps the first step of repentance is to stop hiding and step into the light. I cannot heal myself, but perhaps God cannot heal me either until I come to him in truth, in confession, seeing my need for what it is.
We often talk about Christ being the light of the world and yet what we forget is that we really like darkness. Darkness allows hiding. Leaning into the light, being people of the light, means coming out of hiding. It means speaking truth even when we want to run in the opposite direction. It means we don’t shove our sin in a dark room and keep it hidden, we bring it out into the light.
I’m not going to say this is easy. It’s not. It is hard to say aloud the deep wounds in my heart, the things I’m embarrassed to admit. It’s hard to face my own sin head on and then speak those things in the presence of someone I care for, who I want to care for me. This is hard work, but it’s holy work, and work that we have largely neglected in the modern church.
We neglect or rush past the fast for the feast, and I think we largely do this because we want to stay hidden. We like the idea of Christ as a light, as long as that light doesn’t shine too brightly in our direction. At least that’s where I think I’ve been, but this season, this Advent, I’m praying a new prayer. I’m asking for light. Not just the light of guidance or the happy feel good of God banishing the darkness around me, but the light that banishes the darkness within me.
Christ as a light, illumine and guide me*
I need you, Lord Jesus.
I need you to come as light.
Come into the darkness,
Come into my darkness.
Christ as a light, illumine and guide me*
You are the light that burns,
and this Advent I ask you to burn away the darkness in my own heart.
Burn away the unbelief.
Burn away the wounds that I’ve carried too long.
Burn away the sins that I cherish, and the sins that I abhor.
Burn away the chains.
Christ as a light, illumine and guide me*
Make visible the things I try to hide.
Make clear the things I try to ignore.
Shine your light in all the dark corners of my soul.
Christ as a light, illumine and guide me*
Meet me here,
In the darkness,
In the light,
In the waiting,
In my need.
Meet me here in mercy.
Meet me here with grace.
Christ as a light, illumine and guide me*
The Christ child comes,
The light of the world breaks forth,
Arise, O sleeper,
Arise from the dead,
Step out of the dark,
And Christ will shine on You.
Amen.
*This particular line is taken from the Celtic Book of Daily Prayer
It would be silly to light a lamp and then hide it under a bowl. When someone lights a lamp, she puts it on a table or a desk or a chair, and the light illumines the entire house. You are like that illuminating light. Let your light shine everywhere you go, that you may illumine creation, so men and women everywhere may see your good actions, may see creation at its fullest, may see your devotion to Me, and may turn and praise your Father in heaven because of it. Matt 5:15,16 The Voice)
The millions of stars that light up the night sky are breathtaking. They don’t disappear when the sun comes up, but we can no longer see them. The brilliance of the sun hides them.
Sometimes we worry that the light of Christ is setting in our world. People are not going to church, they are not reading scripture, they are not praying. As Christmas approaches we want to see visible signs of Christ’s coming – mangers in the park, pageants in our churches, Christmas carols on the radio. Yet I wonder, is their brightness obscuring the million points of light, the Christ light within each of us that is meant to shine in the darkness. We only need beacons to guide us when it is dark. We only become aware of the millions of stars around us when the sun sets.
What is your response?
Think about the public displays of Christmas around you – the manger scenes in front of churches, the Christmas music on the radio and TV, nativity scenes on Christmas cards. In what ways do you think they make people more aware of the true light of Christ? In what ways do you think they obscure that light?
Now think about the Christ light within you. When do you feel it shines most brightly? How could you enable it to shine more brightly this Christmas season.
Interestingly LED lights — which are touted for their energy-saving properties and are being installed in our homes and in cities around the world — are actually making light pollution worse. (Read more here.) As ever brighter night lights creep into our cities, our homes and our lives they disrupt our night and day cycles, confuse animals and give us all more restless, sleepless nights.
These artificial night lights are important but they need to be intentionally focused on where the light is really needed. And they often need to be shielded so that they do not obscure the natural lights that are meant to flourish in the night.
What is your response?
Think about the artificial lights that brighten your life especially in this season in which we wait for the coming of Christ. Perhaps it is consumerism, or busyness, or even the pressure to shine more light on the nativity of Christ at this season. How authentically are you shining as the Christ light of a beacon on a hill? What is obscuring your Christ light so that it is not shining as brightly as it should in the darkness not just at this season but throughout the year? Are their ways in which you should be less focused on being bathed in the “Sonlight”
Watch the video below. Prayerfully consider how God would ask you to “go light your world” this Advent and Christmas season.
Here is a beautiful Christmas prayer by Mother Teresa of Calcutta to meditate on this week.
At this season of the year, I love to use prayers like this to help keep me focused on the real meaning of Christmas and Advent. May we indeed enable our families to be “another Nazareth where peace and love and joy can reign.
by Joy Lenton
I live mole-like with M.E-tired, sleep-deprived, hyper-sensitive eyes.
I’m shunning the limelight, well any light come to that.
Give me shadowy gloom, soft-lit lamps and subdued hues and I’m a happy bunny.
Life is way too bright for me.
Screens have to be turned low or I can’t look at them for long.
It hurts my eyes and swiftly saps the precious little energy I have.
And I wonder if my predilection points to a deeper soul situation.
Am I avoiding God’s penetrating gaze because it alerts me to my sin and shame?
Is it easier to turn away, hoping to remain unseen, or should I gather courage and face the music?
Or at least face up to my need of forgiveness, mercy, restoration and transformation.
Dare to brave the blaze of God’s face, seek out its penetrating rays.
Darkness can so often seem to be our friend as we gather its cloak of perceived invisibility around our shoulders.
Seek out its secret, covert covering.
We can become so accustomed to its womb-like welcome we forget we are meant to be children of light.
We can lose sight of how Light Himself bids us welcome, so used are we to drawing back.
What if.. we chose to lean toward the light?
Found it irresistible to our souls.
What if we sought it out like moth to flame?
Would our wings become singed?
Would we burn up in the heat of it?
Or maybe we would find that God’s light is unlike any other because its already been partly revealed to us in Jesus.
Fear may make us turn away, but in the seeking we discover how fears melt in its radiance.
There’s a warm benevolence here.
There’s a welcome beyond any we’ve known before.
We will find a shield and a covering for every dark circumstance we are in.
If we lean a little closer to God’s blinding light we will not be consumed, except by His love.
Our brokenness is broken into beauty.
Our shame made dust and ashes in the flame of sacred love.
Our guilt removed in the gilt that glitters brighter than anything.
Our pain is made bearable and healing made possible.
His searing light pierces our problems with grace beyond measure.
I may have an acquired aversion to brightness, but I’m learning how to live more fully in the light of God’s countenance.
And relax into its soothing embrace, enveloping like liquid honey.
Maybe you too can discover how healing it can be, how much your soul needs to bathe in its golden rays.
This Advent season might be one of the best times to try.
Because light is calling out to you and me, longing for us to see and sense its nearness.
With a brightness made beautiful in Jesus, the personified radiance of God Himself.
Are we ready to welcome the captivating Light of Life?
In this Advent season we await the coming of Christ
Come, Lord Jesus, come to us this day. We await your coming.
We await the coming of God’s revealing light,
Come, Lord Jesus, come to us this day. We await your coming.
We await the coming of God’s saving hope
Come, Lord Jesus, come to us this day. We await your coming.
We wait the coming of God’s redeeming child
Come, Lord Jesus, come to us this day. We await your coming.
(Pause for lighting of the Advent candle)
We wait for the God of life
We wait for the Christ of love
We wait for the Spirit of truth
Come down, come in and dwell among us.
We wait in expectation of your coming
We wait in hope for your promises
We wait in joy for your salvation
Come down, come in and dwell among us.
Come into our hearts that we may love you
Come into our minds that we may know you
Come into our lives that we may serve you
Come down, come in and dwell among us.
(Read Scripture for the Day)
Child of promise come,
Revealer of God come,
Bringer of life come,
Come to the beaten and the battered,
Come to the despised and rejected
Come to all in whom the divine image is still distorted
We wait in joyful expectation.
Come not as an distant emperor but as a helpless babe
Come not as a prince in a gold palace, but as a displaced and frightened refugee
Come not as a man of power, but in love and compassion
Come to those outcast like shepherds in the field
Come to foreigners like Magi watching from afar
Come to rich and poor, young and old, male and female,
We wait in hopeful anticipation
Come to bless all creation with your love
Come to bring salvation on the earth
Come to rule with justice and in peace
Come Child of promise, open the windows of our hearts
Come Christ of compassion, open the doors of our homes
Come Prince of Peace, open the pathways to our lives
We wait with all the peoples of the earth
Child of hope we welcome your coming
Christ of life we welcome your coming
King of glory we welcome your coming
Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil, for thine is the kingdom the power and the glory, for ever and ever. Amen.
Come Lord Jesus and lead the captives from their prisons,
Come Lord Jesus for in you we trust O King of kings.
Come to bring peace in the midst of war,
Come Lord Jesus for in you we trust O King of kings.
Come to offer comfort in the presence of mourning
Come Lord Jesus for in you we trust O King of kings.
Come to provide abundance in the midst of hunger
Come Lord Jesus for in you we trust O King of kings.
Come to show forth justice for those who have been oppressed
Come Lord Jesus for in you we trust O King of kings.
Christ our Saviour comes and we welcome his coming.
Not as a king but as a babe,
Not as a master but as a servant,
Not as a warrior but as a man of peace
May we put on the armour of light this day,
And clothe ourselves with Christ.
Let us put on hope to guide us,
Let us put on love to surround us,
Let us put on joy to sustain us,
Let us put on peace to inspire us.
May we put on the armour of light this day,
And clothe ourselves with Christ.
We wait for the day of justice,
We wait for the dawn of righteousness,
We wait for the coming of light,
We wait for the advent of peace,
May we put on the armour of light this day,
And clothe ourselves with Christ.
Amen
Here is the Light of the World
See it shine between parent and child in their teasing bedtime negotiations,
For stories and clean teeth.
Here is the Light of the World
Hear it ring out from this wrinkled face laughing at a memory, sprung from nowhere,
As surprised as you are.
Here is the Light of the World
Catch the aroma of it in a wilting bunch of violets, brought with tenderness back to the slum,
Rescued from the gutter.
Here is the Light of the World
Savour the taste of it in cheese and tomato rolls made bleary-eyed with ungrudging love,
A daily dawn devotion.
Here is the Light of the World
Feel it warm and loyal between our held hands as we await the results, seated on plastic chairs.
And whatever they are, in my staying.
Here is the Light of the World
Know the darkness has not overcome it.
© Keren Dibbens-Wyatt 2015
There are only two feelings
Love and fear.
There are only two languages
Love and fear.
There are only two activities
Love and fear.
There are only two motives, two procedures, two frameworks, two results
Love and fear, love and fear.
This poem by Australian cartoonist Michael Leunig is what comes to my mind as I read the reports of yet another mass shooting, this time in San Bernardino California. It is only a few weeks since I wrote this prayer for the victims of the bombings in Paris. Now I am grieving for more victims of violence and their families. I grieve for those who respond with the desire for more violence and with overwhelming fear and hate. I grieve for all of our society as we grapple with how to respond.
The rhythm of violent death is one that cuts across all our lives like a bolt of lightning. The shockwaves reverberate through our society. Hate, anger, intolerance rise to the surface. We take sides. We lash out at those who want to respond in ways we find unacceptable – more guns, less guns, more restriction, less control, the arguments will never be resolved. And our own anger and violent responses can easily rise to the surface.
Let Us Respond With Love Not Fear.
My mind goes back to the shootings at the Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church in Charleston in June by a young man who first spent an hour in Bible study and prayer with his victims. Friends and relatives did not responded with hate but with love and forgiveness.
The granddaughter of Daniel Simmons Sr., one of the victims, said,
“Although my grandfather and the other victims died at the hands of hate, this is proof—everyone’s plea for your soul is proof that they lived in love and their legacies will live in love. So, hate won’t win. . . .
And its true. The shooter hoped to start a race war, with hatred at its center. The victims’s families created a wave of love instead that I think could ignite a movement.
We all have the choice to respond to the brutalities of our world with despair, anger and bitterness or with hope, love and compassion. If we respond in anger and bitterness the violence and atrocities grow and multiply. If we respond in love and with compassion, God’s presence is able to shine through and transform the horrors into hope. This does not belittle the horror of atrocities such as this but it does make us aware that our God, who is scarred and disfigured by all our sins, our God who suffers with us in the midst of pain, will one day make all things new.
Lets Drive Out Fear and hate With Love.
Advent reminds us that in the coming of Christ we also look forward to the advent of a new heaven and a new earth in which all suffering and pain and death will be done away with. At the centre of our faith is the hope that through Christ all that is distorted by evil can be transformed into the goodness and glory of God.
In meditating on Leunig’s prayer I wrote the following reflection based on 1 John 4:18 “There is no fear in love because perfect love casts out fear.”
Fear is of this world, love is from God
Fear closes us in, love opens us up
Fear builds walls, love constructs bridges
With fear nothing is possible, with love all things are possible
Fear destroys, love creates
Fear kills, love gives life.
God may we live by the love that flows from your spirit, the love that casts out fear and evil. May we reach out with care and compassion to all those who are hurting and in need. May we drive out the world’s fear with your perfect love. Amen
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