This morning’s post is something of a confession.
As my blog and facebook prayers continue to grow in popularity I find myself constantly wanting to harness my thoughts, to remember my prayers and confine my imaginings so that I can share them with others. I love writing and I love sharing and I know that this is a ministry that God has called me to, so this is not a burden for me, but what I am realizing is that it can be a distraction. Sometimes God wants to speak to me alone. I was very aware of this over the last week as i spent time refreshing and renewing myself. There was much that happened that was for me alone.
Sometimes God wants to touch my heart in a special way but I want to grab hold of that thought and fling it to the winds – share it on my blog, make it into a facebook prayer, expose its energy and rip it from the private place of God’s intention.
So I am learning to sit in the presence of God’s sharing and cherish the words, savouring their flavour, listening for their intent. I am learning to pause and ask Who is this for, is it for me alone?
We live in a world where it is not uncommon for people to air their intimate lives on TV or the internet. We can easily lose the boundaries between private and public thoughts. We walk in the woods and beautiful poetry streams out of our mouths. We feel frustrated because we do not have a place to write the verses down and by the time we get home we have forgotten them. Yet the beauty of those words can revolve in our minds for days. It is lodged in our hearts in a way that it would not have been if we had written the poetry down. The words hover on the edge of our consciousness, touching an intimate place of closeness to God, a place that is more precious because it so intangible, so much beyond the written word.
So this morning I encourage you to take time to savour what God is saying to you alone. Be quick to listen but not to speak. Relax in the wonder of intimacy in that place in which you alone can encounter God.
God may I remember that sometimes you speak to me alone, thoughts not meant to be shared. May I relax in the wonder of intimacy with you, that special place that only I can enter. Amen