This morning I am looking out my window on our first cloudy day for quite a while. Like most people, I love sunshine and relish the long cloudless days that are often part of summer even here in the Pacific Northwest. But even more than that, I love the sunshine that radiates through the clouds, and the solitary beams that light up the sky with rainbow colours.
Thinking about this reminded me of a comment from one of my Facebook friends this morning.
Some days I am not sure if my faith is riddled with doubt, or whether, graciously, my doubt is riddled with faith.
Doubt has played a very important place in my faith. Without doubt I would never have questioned the assumptions of my early faith and been challenged to get out of my comfort zones and explore the new possibilities God was presenting to me. Without doubt my faith would have stagnated and been stunted.
So often when I have struggled with doubts and not been sure of whether I had any faith left, suddenly it has shone through like sunlight through the clouds, illuminating everything in my life with a breathtaking radiance that only God can create.
Give reign to doubt. It is so often the voice of the Holy Spirit, prompting you to ask questions about life and faith that you have never thought of before.
As you think about that this morning you may like to listen to this video which I first posted several years ago, of Thomas Merton speaking about doubt in his life.